Lately I have been very unhappy with myself. I have unfortunately and regretfully gained all my weight back. It's very hard to admit but I am very sure people have noticed by looking at me. I have seriously felt like a complete and total failure. So much so that I have been trying to hide from people. I've stopped attending bible study, training, going out, etc. All because I don't want people to see me. Last year people would tell me I was such an inspiration and how proud they were of me. I feel I've let everyone down, including my kids, but most importantly myself.
A lot of my old symptoms are back; shortness of breath, fatigue, dizziness, etc.
I have had my blood pressure checked a few times and it is up again. That just pisses me off.
I've been watching my family lately and noticed that my husband has gained weight and my oldest son as well, which breaks my heart. Aidyn isn't anywhere near being obese or maybe not even considered over weight yet, but I can tell he's put on some extra pounds that shouldn't be there. I've always made a vow to myself I'd never let my children become over weight. I want them to be strong and heatlhy.
Plus diabetes runs on both my mothers and fathers side of family. My mother has diabetes. I don't want my children to become diabetic.
I've been looking at our diet and seen recently we've been eating a lot of fast food. I think it's due to us being way more busy than we normally are(or should I say I've been more busy than usual, Marc's always been busy lol) and lack of preparation.
Yesterday Marc and I made a pack. We are, starting today, going a whole week of NO fast food. I know, it's just a week, doesn't seem long. But we want to take it one week at a time. Giving up fast food sounds easy, but I know it'll be harder than we think. My ultimate goal is to go a whole month...then hopefully up to a year!! And possibly give it up for good.
If I spend more time on preparing lunches and dinners ahead of time we won't need to depend on fast food places. So that's what I am going to do. :)
If it starts getting tough or tempting, I will post here. I will let y'all know how everything goes.
